I'm sat in a supermarket car park at 8.45am. I've just dropped Emily and her brother at school. Today is the first day that Emily will attend form. She's then going to one lesson and then I'm taking her back to the unit.
School have, against normal policy, agreed to move Emily from her old form into her brothers. It means she has him for support and she also knows a few others from her junior school. Even so, this morning she was showing classic anxiety symptoms.
When the form change was first suggested I spoke to my son. He was ok about it and understood. Yesterday and this morning, however, he has been a typical stroppy sibling. A pound each for sweets hopefully has smoothed, or maybe bribed the way.
Earlier this week, we woke up to a good few inches of snow. I didn't fancy going far in the car. My son walked to the school bus, (which didn't come, unsurprisingly) grumbling all the way I should imagine.
The big story however came from Emily. She said she'd go by tram on her own to the unit. Not only would this be a complete first, going solo since her illness, but she would also be on with school kids from her old school.
I checked and double checked. She was adamant.
Her journey was slow and there were constant texts between us, but she made it. I told her I was so proud of her and that she should be really proud of herself.
Not only was it a huge achievement at the time, but it has become a resource she can continue to collect dividends from.
As the tears and shakes started in the car park this morning I reminded her of that tram trip and that this was nothing in comparison. She nodded.
As I watched them walk of to school together, something, at times, I thought would never happen again, a voice in my head said "thanks for all the snow"
- Mum of 2, suffering my own mental health issues, I began to write this blog as a way to release feelings and emotions. At 13 my daughter was terribly bullied which has led to her having serious mental health problems of her own. She is now 16. I wanted to document our journey and hopefully be able to look back and see how far we have come.